I left the place where I copied CDs and documents, and found work as a PHP coder again. In hindsight, anything was possible. I could’ve easily coded Facebook, or Twitter. All I really need is to time travel back to this time, and tell myself to be a really great coder.<\/p>\n
This wasn’t my way. I worked everyday on my Greek. After work I would go to 2 cafes where I’d read philosophy in one and write at the other. Coding was still a means to an end for me. I believed philosophy would somehow pay out in this world and in this life time. Unconsciously, I was doing this philosophy because I hated what my mother told me when I was 5: “You’ll never be happy if you don’t have money.” I always thought in the back of my head, “My family has money. If that’s true, why isn’t my family happy? Why are dinners such drab, boring and painful affairs?”<\/p>\n
At one cafe there was a Scottish woman with red hair who was friendly to me. I never asked her out…<\/p>\n
Regret.<\/p>\n
22 July 2003<\/p>\n
Jose told me that some women told him that I was too serious.
\n“You need to think less because they can tell when and what you are thinking.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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